Becoming a Betty

Quote to Remember

2011-10-04T18:12:00.001-07:00

Hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard!

More of the same

2011-04-03T11:42:00.000-07:00

I still suck at motivating myself to exercise. I NEED to do it. I'm eating good and losing about a lb a week, but if I were to exercise it would go faster! I'm not sure how to get there though, and with my crazy busy days, i'm not sure when to fit it in. I litterally come home from work and make supper then take Izze to swimming/dance or vice versa. Then when thats over its time for the kids to go to bed, then me!

Why can't there be one more hour in the day? I guess it wouldnt matter, I'd use it for sleep instead :-(

Uber Frustration

2011-02-21T10:27:00.000-08:00

I spent the last three days watching what I eat HARD core. NO snacks, no cheats, no meals. Lots of water. I felt like I was starving myself (mentally) but felt good phsyically. I did not however work out, as time did not allow. I weigh in every morning as a way to "monitor" my previous days intakes. And every morning this weekend the scale said "WAY TO GO" and "Your doing GREAT". Then this morning came, and I was up 3 lbs? How can that happen? I can account for about 1lb possibly and I'm going to be kinda and not tell you how. But the other two...thats just frustrating. It makes you not want to continue.

I'm really just angry at myself. Why i let myself put that 20lbs back on between last June and this October. It would have been so much easier to MAINTAIN then to lose again. I looked damn good. I want to look damn good again. How can 20lbs make that much different, I dont know, but do you know 20lbs is almost 3-4 pants sizes?!!? THAT is gross. I want my size 6 back. Most days I'm a 10. But this weekend I had to put on a 12 (on Friday) and that is when I the moment I started to behave. I disgust myself. I know as far as others see me I'm not obese, but that doesnt make me any less disappointed in myself. I have to keep on, but when the scale makes me sad i want to EAT. :-(

Please lord jesus, give me the strength. I want and need to love myself like i did last year. I promise never to give in to the eggs again! (Jesus, lets be clear here, I will eat them, i just wont eat 12 a day). Thank you Jesus.

Zumba

2011-02-20T10:13:00.001-08:00

Today I am going to try Zumba.
Oh wait. Today i WAS going to try Zumba.
The damn snow storm went and got the class cancelled. So if I can fit it into my schedule on Tuesday then I'll do it then, if not, I'll wait till next Sunday.

Counting down

2011-02-14T12:36:00.000-08:00

I"m getting nervous. This gets harder every time.
In a month I weigh in for our final weigh in. I just want to have lost 10 lbs. Thats all I'm aiming for, but more would be great!
In 4 months is the wedding. I am stressing about the dress size. It would help if the bride would bring my dress to me instead of holding it hostage so that I can see how much I have to work to make it work!
I dont like pressure, it makes me want to eat, or crawl in my bed and hide. Neither of those things are going to help!

WEEK 4

2011-02-01T14:24:00.000-08:00

is kicking my butt!!! I'm having sooo much trouble with the last 5 minute run! I feel like I'll die. I have no idea why its so hard. Last week was so easy.
I'm also gaining muscle and thus NOT making my scale move. So frustrating :-(

C25K W2D3

2011-01-21T16:46:00.000-08:00

AND I'M DONE! WHEW. That one was the hardest of the three, even though its the same, I think because I ate junk and pop today. That will teach me. I like that my body is figuring out how to show me what it doesn't like.

I've been watching an episode of Law and Order Criminal Intent Season 1 with each run. Its great timing. I turn on the episode with my netflix streaming, I get my shoes on, plug in the treadmill, warm up, run, cool down. Sit down take off shoes, unplug everything, and then it ends. This works for me. I shoulda started it the first day, so I was episode for work out. But instead I'm done with episode 4 (and workout 6). Maybe this weekend I'll watch two episodes to catch myself up. That would be a lot easier to remember.

Yes I AM a dork.

Slim Down Challenge

2011-01-19T15:48:00.000-08:00

2 weeks ago today I convinced a few of my coworkers and a freind to join the Slim Down Challenge with me. You need a team of four. You weigh in on January 5th and bi-weekly you send your weights to the captain (me) for them to send in. The results are posted in the paper. The final weigh in is live on March 16th.
My team started off as the SMALLEST team to start with. Combined we weighed 614.2lbs. Did I mention they publish that in the paper? And our results each week. At first being the smallest team worried me. But we lost 10lbs! I think thats pretty dang good.
So watch for the Divine Diva's in the paper. And lets hope we kick some butt!

C25k W2D1

2011-01-17T14:07:00.000-08:00

I dont know if it was my distraction or what, but it flew by. And was not as hard as I thought it would be.

Yesterday, since it was an "off" day; I did Just Dance and wii tennis with Izze. Today my arm pit hurts. Yep. I said arm PIT. Weird? I think so!

I also need to post a chart on my fridge to make sure I'm getting in stuff on my off days, instead of choosing my usual LAZY route :-)

Thank you netflix!

2011-01-15T12:01:00.000-08:00

I made it through week one. And as it should be day 3 was easier then days 1 and 2. Whew. I also found netflix streaming episodes of Law and Order to be uber helpful with that as well! Thank you Netflix.
So on Monday, I am to start week 2! Kev's gone this week; so it will be tricky to get in all of my runs, but hopefully I can do it :-) I think my new floors are just asking for Izze and I to play Just Dance 2! Thats always good for a sweat.

C25k W1D2...

2011-01-11T16:42:00.000-08:00

Done!
It was easier then day 1. I think thats the point, though its not always how MY body knows. Anyone who knows me knows I'm NOT an athlete. I remember in grade school walking the mile. I remember in middle school "cardinals" would kill me during Volleyball (those are the nasty sprints from one end of the gym to the first line and back; to the next line and back; and so on and so on until you go the full length and that counts as ONE cardinal). And in HS I gave up sports that involved running; cheerleading and golf it was.
So yes, I'm not an athlete in the least.
This is without even mentioning that I have one leg that is shorter then the other; so I run like a freak.
But it was easy(er) so thats good news!

Dear Lord,

2011-01-10T13:18:00.001-08:00

My thighs hurt.
Amen.

C25k...

2011-01-09T12:05:00.001-08:00

...take two. Or is it three. Well if it is three; attempt two was a FAIL (meaning I never did more then a day or two). So we are calling this try two. I'm really outta shape, so I'm starting at week one again. I got through all my run/walks (20 minutes) and before my cool down decided to see how long I could sprint. I lasted a whole 20 seconds before I though I'd fall off. Considering behind me is a glass door, I didn't feel like pushing it.
Thats harder then I remember. My cat is judging me. She must think its easy.
She's sitting on the treadmill mocking me.
Turn this baby on; I'll show you how to do it.

The plan

2011-01-09T09:02:00.000-08:00

I should have a plan.
But I don't.
What I've done in the past has always worked. So I guess its more of that.
I did give up pop. Thats hard, I am only an occasional drinker anyways, but its been more frequent lately; and now that I can't I REALLY want one.
I'm off to try my new treadmill soon! YEAH for new treadmills!

Resolution

2011-01-02T11:19:00.001-08:00

A year ago I was in almost the best shape of my life. I was down to 128lbs. My lowest since high school. I looked good, though I didn't really think so at the time. But now lookign back. Yep, I did.
I'll never bee a stick girl; I'm a curvy girl; but at least they were proportioned.
SO why did I let myself get away from that you ask. Why did I put back on 15-20 lbs (depending on the day). Well....Yep basically these things are my kryptonite. Which is MIGHTY funny if you know that I do not even like chocolate, nor am I fan of peanut butter, heck, I don't even like Reeses peanut butter cups. But take those cups and turn them into an egg and I'm a GONER.
My body, or perhaps a divine intervention; decided enough was enough. And when pumpkin season came around, my body rejected them. I think I overdosed on eggs last spring. Now when I eat them; I get ill within an hour. Some days its still worth it...to have ONE. But never again will I sit down and eat the bag....WHEW.
SO now its time to get rid of this pesky extra weight. I want to wear my skinny clothes again. So its back to watching what I eat and WORKING OUT. I hate working out. We know this. But I dont mind running on a treadmill. So its Kevs job to get me one. He's been supposedly working on this since September. Seriously. Speed it up buddy. Because now I have not one but TWO deadlines.
As of Wednesday; I'm joining the slim down contest in Fbo where they post your loss in the PAPER! I have until March 16th to lose as much as I can to win prizes. I have a team depending on me!
My second deadline is June 18th. Yes my anniversary. But also B and Matts wedding. I ordered a size 8 which fit at about 12+lbs over goal weight. But not 1t 15-20+. I'd rather be under; after all I know a damn good seamstress who can make ANYTHING smaller; but bigger....not so much. Besides; that will be summer; and I have all sorts of super CUTE size 6 clothes in my closet that are begging me to wear them again. Don't worry clothes (and summer) I'm coming! I'm coming!

Summer Slacking

2010-08-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

Well I've spent the summer slacking. Yo-Yoing in a 10lb range. Anywerhe frmo 10-20lbs above the goal weight I reached....BOO HISS.

I joined a weight loss challenge 4 weeks ago, and I have 8 more weeks to go. I have lost 3lbs of that. Seriously?! Thats not my best effort and I know it. I put on a pair of PJs that used to hang loose and they are tight. FRUSTRATING. While I wish I could say my clothes shrunk, I dont think thats the problem.

So I have 8 weeks to get going. I need to AT LEAST give my best effort. I hate lacking in motivation; I hate that my body is going back to where it was; I dont want to be a yo-yo dieter. I was doing fine "maintaining" until summer it and I got toooo mcuh time on my hands. Hopefully when work starts up that wont be an option.

Sigh. I just still dont feel it!

Before I turn 30

2010-04-29T17:35:00.000-07:00

Alright, well May 4th. Thats my day. This weekend I must celebrate my baby girl turning 4! And after that, its back to the grind. I've done well (by well I mean I stopped gaining weight, lol and started to exercise occasionally).

So on Monday, its back to the diet and back to the daily activity.

I have to say, I'm starting to think I'm MEANT to be 140. Thats where I plateaued after Izze (before Caden) and thats where I plateaued last summer for about 6 months and thats where my body went right back to when I stopped being diligent.

I'm okay with that. However, I promised to be in the best shape of my life at 30. And while that is decent shape for me (my college weight) its not my best. So back at it I go.....and hopefully I can reach my goal....

Diet Bandwagon

2010-03-16T14:43:00.000-07:00

Getting back on this is HARD. I hate to eat healthy. I wish I liked it. I've been outta control with my eating thanks to Easter Candy. Today I've stayed on track and its almost supper time. My head HURTS because its the first day in 3 weeks, I have yet to have sugar. I'm trying to push through, but boy is it HARD!

Peeeuww...musta been the dog!

2010-03-04T15:54:00.000-08:00

Its Beautiful here in MN. There is mud everywhere. Slush galore. Wet stinky dogs. But the sun is shining and its 40 degrees. That DEFINITELY called for some grilling.

So I made some FABULOUS burgers. And what good is a burger without baked beans...NO GOOD. So there you have it.

WHY am I sharing this. Well, if you know me you may also know that I once choose to fail a gymnastics class in college because bending and exercising really made my IBS issues come to the surface. Gas and frequent bathroom trips make for an awkward 60 minutes of exercise at times. Your sooo welcome that I shared that. Lucky for me, it has improved greatly over the years but high fiver items such as beans, well that does NOT keep it on track.

So for the sake of the other 15 people in the circuit class, I sacrificed myself and stayed home for a video. My family is used to the smell....those poor people are not. And at home, I can blame the dog!

Shin Splints

2010-03-04T10:29:00.000-08:00

YEOWWWCH!

I didn't start the C25k yesterday. I had shin splints from Tuesday's mile!!!!

They hurt, so yesterday I rested.

Today I wont start either, but I DO plan to go to the gym and do a circut class. Now that I typed that I better actually go!

Couch to 5k repeat

2010-03-02T14:23:00.000-08:00

Well, its almost 5k season. I was asked to do one that is 6 weeks away. I don't think I'll be able to due to a schedule conflict, but that means its at least time to start getting back into the running game. So I'm gonna start on week 2 or 3. I was going to start today, but decided to just start with a timed mile (I was short on time today). I pulled out a 12:25 mile, which is not my best, but not my worst either. And at least I hit the gym (I went a whole wopping 3 times in Febuary).

So lets see if I can get back into this!!!

I'm a pepper...

2010-02-18T17:22:00.001-08:00

Well, I decided that weight was put on by my reintroducing carbonated beverages to my life. I only had one case, but it went fast, and I was hooked fast. I had gas galore and I was bloated. Since I ran out of Diet Dr. Pepper, I went through caffeine withdraws first. Thats funny because when I started to drink them, I got headaches from introducing the caffeine. Then when I stopped I got headaches from quitting it. SO I quickly remembered why I avoid it. Next, the weight has dropped 2lbs a day with minimal exercise and minimal working out. But now I'm suffering from sugar detox. I'm craving it like no other......what I wouldn't give right now for a Diet Dr. Pepper (but caffeine free please)

Fat Tuesday

2010-02-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

Happy Fat Tuesday!

I felt the need to celebrate and over the last few weeks have eaten enough to feed a small orphanage for a year. Thus resulting in my pants hardly fitting.

Tomorrow starts Lent. Originally a time for fasting. Now we try to encourage students to do good deeds during the season (as opposed to the traditional "giving something up"). For me, I'll go with the fasting....and my good deed will be to go to the gym. After all, they need business in this tough economy. And after I've done that I will work on not bitching and moaning about it to my husband who will appreciate a happy wife as opposed to an angry one.

I feel this is above and beyond my calling.....but I'm a giver.

Devine Interventions

2010-02-15T07:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I FORCED myself to the gym. After a good cry and stalling.

I got there and jumped on the elliptical. I had read an article that said, high intensity for a shorter amount of time is better then a long time at moderate intensity. So I decided to"up the resistance" and go for 10-15 minutes. Figured anything is better then what I've been doing for the past 3 weeks.

So coming upon minute 13 and who walks up but my trainer. Who I am no longer seeing because she costs an arm and a leg, but I really wish I could. I think 'uh oh" she can SENSE I havent worked out in over 21 days. She tells me they are having kickboxing in an 5 minutes and tells me I'll love it. I can't think of an excuse fast enough so I said I'd join.

It turned out to be a GREAT hour long work out (I even stayed for the extra 10 minutes of ab work). I felt very proud afterward. She asked me if I liked it and I said I did, then I confessed. She laughed at me, and said she was glad I was back and that she could hold me accountable.

That was just what I needed....now if only I could afford to see her once a week and let her hold me accountable!

Motivation is lacking again

2010-02-14T06:43:00.000-08:00

I gained about 5 lbs since getting back from Jamaica. I'm not very happy about that. BUT I haven't been to the gym since before we went (its been over 3 weeks at least).

I really need to go to the gym and work out but the idea depresses me. I HATE it. I HATE working out. I try to tell myself I'll feel better afterward, but I just can not convince myself, and I'm not sure what to do about this rut.

Oh what a difference a year makes.....

2010-02-12T22:13:00.000-08:00

I knew I had changed over the year. I was reminded of this when I saw Miss Jennifers post about her change over the year. I didn't really think to look back though.

Then today, someone mentioned what I was doing a year ago today (up north for a cousins wedding) and the 'picture" popped into my head. So I thought I should show a picture of me then and a picture of me now.....

not only the 42 lbs, but wow.....

My valentines date and I last year!

My valentines date and I this year!

New Years Resolutions SUCK

2010-01-02T09:17:00.000-08:00

Seriously. I manage to drag myself outside in the negative 25 degree weather to go to the gym. PAT ON THE BACK for that. So what do I find when I get there, but a bajillion people. I expected this, after all its January 2nd. And people made the resolution to get to the gym, yesterday they were probably too hung over to start, but today, they go. Heres the problem. This if Faribault. I should NOT have to wait in line for a treadmill in Faribault. In LA maybe. But not Faribault. I will not do it. Not when I have workouts I can do at home, and new ones at that! Biggest Loser DVD's and the Wii game here I come. And those of you who KNOW your not going to last past January 31st with your resolutions, STOP making them.

Reached my goal again!

2010-01-01T17:35:00.001-08:00

I DID IT!

I'm back, and it only took a week, not bad. Whew.

So now, what next. I'm happy with the number on the scale. I love that I can say I lost 40lbs. I have found that when I DONT take care of myself (i.e. eating like crap and not working out) my body pays for it and I feel it. I DONT like how it makes me feel and therefore I will continue to try to keep up the good habits I have, and try and improve on others (water consumption and breakfast!)

Someone asked me if I was done losing weight now. Honestly, I dont know. I still look in the mirror and see a lot of the same stuff that bugged me. So I deffinately want to work on toning. But like I said, I dont care about the number on the scale. So from not on, its working on the image and making sure I KEEP feeling good and healthy.....this could be the trickiest step yet!!!!!

40lbs lost.....and then a few gained back!

2009-12-28T18:28:00.001-08:00

I reached my goal!!!!! I did it I did it! Merry Christmas to me!

Christmas Eve morning I hit my goal!

why then does my ticker NOT reflect that. Well because Christmas eve morning i started eating christmas foods. So back on it came! LOL

But I know i can do it now. Almost there

Hmph

2009-12-18T14:08:00.000-08:00

Last month, I managed to work out 26 of 30 days. Thats pretty awesome for me if I do say so myself. This month.....hmmm.....so far 6 times. UGGGG. NOT GOOD.

Thanks to the stomach flu I lost another 2 lbs (initially I lost 5, but 3 of that came back when I got dehydrated).

I have been behaving on the diet though and that helps at least, but I'm running out of time to GET FIT for Jamaica.

I have 2 training sessions left with the trainer. Lets hope I make the most of them! They kick my butt and I love it!

From Skeptic to Believer

2009-12-04T10:26:00.000-08:00

So, I've always been a skeptic of trainers.

They cost a fortune and really, if I can get the "workout" plan from someone isn't that good enough. Womens health offers GREAT workout plans, and they vary. Ideally, this should be enough. For some people it might be.

But recently I obtained 5 sessions for almost free. I've had my first two and I am a true believer that they are worth thier weight in gold. I could have done the first workout alone (if someone gave me the instructions) but there is NO way I would have pushed myself to do it in the time she did, nor would my last rep (till failure) have lasted until actual failure. I cheat myself. I can't cheat someone else.

My second workout was something I could never do alone. It was a medicine ball work out that involved catching and such. And it was great.

I was at a plateau for a very long time and since my first session 3 days ago, I am down 3 lbs already....and I FEEL stronger. AMAZING.

Now if I could just find the money to keep going when these 5 are over.....

8 for 8

2009-11-10T16:07:00.000-08:00

As of yesterday my streak was 8 for 8.

Today I'm running out of time, if I can find something to constitute a work out while I watch Biggest Loser it will be 9 for 9.

If not, I broke my streak and I'm blaming it on the husband.

Metabolism Mayhem!

2009-11-07T07:09:00.000-08:00

I LOVE using formula's and logic to lose weight, cause thats me. A pound is 3500 calories, so if I cut 3500 calories a week from what my body needs to maintain, then I lose that much. LOGIC. LOVE IT. But sometimes people do that and lose even MORE, why....because of their metabolism. So I'm BIG into reading on metabolisms. I know that my yo-yo dieting during college probably really messed it up big time....so I like learning how to fix it.

These are things I KNOW can fix your metabolism:

Frequent small meals
ALWAYS eat breakfast
Work out in the morning
add a second smaller workout or walk mid day to re-rev it
Intervals when working out are HUGE (confusing your body)
Get 8 hours of sleep

Along with loving my logic and my math, I'm a reader, and I know you shouldn't believe everything you read, but I overheard a trainer telling one of his clients to read the new posting on the wall. So of course I did. And I believed it!

It listed some of the above ways to boost your metabolism. BUT it had a number one I had not read before:

When we drop our calories to a certain number and eat that each day, our body gets used to that, and SLOWS its metabolic burn rate (adjusted on what we are eating). To prevent this from happening you should find your "maintain" number of calories (which I've done with my formula) On 3 days a week, eat that amount of calories, and on the OTHER days, drop your calories by 20-30% of that number. The thing is you can't do it every other day, or anything your body can get "used" to, predict or adjust to. It needs to be random. (They suggested flipping a coin in the morning and heads is maintain, tails is lower)

That made a TON of sense to me. I am definitely going to try this.

Back on the wagon

2009-11-06T14:41:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm officially 4 for 4 since getting back on the wagon. That includes eating under 1500 calories and working out daily. If I dont lose weight I'll drop to 1200 calories. But for now, I'm getting fit.

I have not run, and I have less then 3 weeks until the 5k. That said, I'm not putting pressure on myself, its also a "walk" so I'm not going to worry about my time, but instead worry about feeling fit, and walking or running for a great cause :-)

http://www.irisremembers.com/events/TurkeyTrot2009/

Its been a while

2009-11-03T15:13:00.000-08:00

Well once I hit 138lbs I kinda gave up. I've been in maintain mode. I fluctuate 5lbs up and down amongst the days. But I still consider it the same.

I do NOT look like I thought I'd look at this weight, and therefore am getting BACK on the wagon to shape up for my cruise.

But sooner then that, I have a 5k in 3 weeks! And I have not ran since September, that doesnt fair well for me. SOOOOOOO back to the grind.

My goal right now is to get 6 workouts a week in between now and Thanksgiving (the day of my 5k). I'll see what my weight does without cutting calories. If it doesnt move, then starting after the 5k, I cut those back down to 1200 as well.

Hungry Girl

2009-08-14T12:23:00.000-07:00

I LOVE her recipes.

I got her second book (200 recipes under 200 calories) and I can't wait to start making them!

Tonight we are having h-o-t hot boneless buffalo wings

and

fiber-fried green beans with spicy cucumber-ranch dip

YUMMMMY!

Is it worth it?

2009-08-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

There is no good excuse for my constantly rising weight, when I've been behaving in food and exercise. Except that I notice I have not lost a single pound since starting my NuvaRing.

While I enjoy the NuvaRing since I have had no break through bleeding, and I am able to skip periods as wanted, and of course the extra reassurance when it comes to NOT making babies. BUT is it worth this side effect. I am frustrated and depressed. Not to mention the other side effect (NO sex drive---humorous to me that BC decreases sex drive, kinda redundant)

I need to be happy and feel good about myself! This is NOT doing it for me.

So keep it or ditch it?!!??!?!!

Wednesday Weigh In

2009-08-12T12:11:00.001-07:00

Still stuck. No inches lost, no pounds lost. Just stuck.

*sigh*

Yesterday I didn't make it to the gym (since my sitter didn't show up in time) but I did get in another 35 minute work out with Active. I could hardly walk by the end of the night last night. The "jump squats" and "jump lunges" are killer!!!

Today there was no sitter lined up, so it was an Active or Shred day. I went with Shred. Level 1. (I think that one works upper body more, cause of the pushups--and i had a sore lower body). Tomorrow is a gym day. This week I'm 3 for 3 on workouts.

And still getting about a 90% effort on the food :-)

Tuesday Schmoozday

2009-08-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

Holding myself accountable starting yesterday.

I behaved all day. My calories were at 900 at bed time. But then I felt the need to cheat and eat 3 spoonfulls of cookie dough. I have no idea where that left me with calories, but I'm guessing it was NOT under 1200.

I made Kevin do Active with me on Wii last night. We did a 40 minute work out. I do well when he does it with me. I had like 75% effort to his 25%. But of course that still breaks down to him burning 100 calories more then I did, jerk face! LOL

Today Im' being good and writing down what I eat just like yesterday, I'm headed out to dinner tonight, so that may put me over, but I'm going to try to still write it down and behave. I'm also headed to the gym when my sister gets here to watch Caden.

So yesterday, I give myself about a 90%. I worked my ass off and behaved till evening.
Lets see how I score today.

When is "Good Enough" enough?

2009-08-07T16:56:00.000-07:00

Its definitely enough when we are talking about:

~occasionally buying cheap shampoo
~ingredients (I'm a free cook, pinches and dashes are my thing)
~washing my car
~ba-da-da-ing (a quick pick up of the house)
~remembering my sunscreen
~folding my clothes
~painting

Good enough is NOT enough when we are talking about:

~cooking chicken and pork
~brand of my jeans
~my conditioner
~measuring my babies medicine
~my paycheck
~bra support

When we are talking about self confidence, and body image, is good enough enough?
I don't think so.

Yet, I reach a comfortable weight and I stop.
I lose motivation.
I slack.
I promise tomorrow will be better, and its not.

What is it gonna take for me to get that motivation, to know that I CAN reach that "perfect" goal I dream about.....

I don't know but I need to figure it out quick and I need help getting back on track!!!!!

Freaken Plateu!!!

2009-07-29T12:15:00.001-07:00

I hate them. Hate hate hate them. They make me lose ALL motivation.

I am stuck at 138. I'm stuck at my inches. I'm stuck all around.

It makes me want to hide in bed, not go to the gym and eat!!!

My plan:
I will ONLY wear my tight jeans to keep me from thinking I have ROOM to eat more. I'm going through my closet and hiding the other stuff. I may have a slight muffin top if I do this, but I will work harder to get rid of it then. Same with my work out clothes, the small ones are it, so when i see myself in the mirror I work that much harder.

Making a menu for the week. GUZZLE THAT WATER.

Daily workouts. I can still only do every other day at the gym, but I'm going to at LEAST do a video or Active on the off days. 7 days a week. Tricky while camping next week, so then I will have to do morning outdoor runs. And nap time ab work in the camper.

GET OVER THIS HUMP!!!!!!!!

Tell me it can be done.

Motivation

2009-07-18T18:01:00.000-07:00

"In running, it doesn't matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, 'I have finished.' There is a lot of satisfaction in that."

-Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon co-founder

"The miracle isn't that I finished. The miracle is that I had the courage to start."
-John Bingham, running speaker and writer

Proud of me!!!! Make that proud of WE!!!!

2009-07-18T16:38:00.000-07:00

I set out today with three goals. But told myself only #1 mattered!!!

1. Finish the 5k
2. Don't finish last
3. Aim to beat my treadmill time of 40 minutes
(that was at zero incline, indoors)

I finished!!!!

I wasn't last!!!!!!!

I took 40:39 and considering I didn't trip anyone, and I added tons of elements (including 60 degree weather, wind, stanky fish smelling rivers, hills, and a man that said "THE END" riding my ass), I think thats pretty good time!!!!!!!

SO I'm proud. I'm happy.

I'm even prouder of Deanna, who did what I shoulda done and started out at a better pace, instead of pushing. I did a lot of walk/jog, she did a very slow jog. She finished at 38:19!!! This is only training ONCE!!! Awesome job D. YOU ROCKED IT!!! And she was kind enough to come back and jog the last 20 seconds with me. She said "if you hurry you can beat 41" to which I replied "FUCK 41" LOL, but I did it! We did it!!!!!!!!

Looking back, at my running upload from my Garmin. My average pace was about 5mph. Which makes sense, because I made it to mile marker one in 12 minutes, and thats also my "best timed mile". They say to find out what your 5k speed will be add 45 seconds to your mile and multiply by 3. I didn't quite make that (38:15), but I'm blaming it on running tooooo hard at the start, my heart rate hit over 200 quickly and it was HARD to get it back down. I'm hoping if I learn to stay in my target HR zone instead of going over, I'll be able to keep pace better. So my goal is to average 5mph for now!

Yeah me!

Okay....time for a 5k

2009-07-14T17:37:00.000-07:00

Well, I know I have one in September, but then one just fell in my lap today, and its this Saturday. I'm gonna go for it. It will be a good "trial" for me, and I'll have a realistic measurment to go by the next time.

I'm super nervouse, super pumped, and can not WAIT till Sunday.

My goal: DONT finish last and FINISH!!!!!

(Ideally I'd like to beat my 40 minute time on the treadmill, but really I'm keeping it simple and sticking to only the one goal).

That's all I've got!

How I roll.....

2009-07-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

People often ask me what I'm doing. I feel like I'm always talking about it, but looking back I guess I'm not. Anyways, here are my key habits that help me the most:

Diet

Write down everything I eat, no cheating, and I leave this on the counter, so anyoen in my house could see it, and that keeps me accountable (both from eating shit and from not eating enough)
Eat within an hour of waking up (I hate this--and am known to eat super foods, as I hate bfast ones!)
Eat about every 4 hours
Keep my calories around 1200, for an exact number I use this, currently I need to eat 1690 calories to maintain my weight (I use sedentary, that way I can subtract my calories burned in a workout) 3500 calories are a pound, to lose a pound a week, you cut 500 a day, i had been cutting 750 from food and burning 250 in work outs each day for 2lbs a week, but now I can not do that, my calorie intake would be TOO low
Do not eat after 7pm
Water water water (I'm bad at this lately, but when I'm good it makes a HUGE difference) Ice cold is best, body works harder with that

Fitness

No less then 3 days a week at the gym--these are mandatory, anything else is extra--on these days at least 15 minutes, preferably 30 of cardio (usually my runs) and weights
Another mandatory is this ab work out by WH (plus some lying flat leg raises-3 sets of 15 and some bycicle crunches-3 sets of 30-15 each side) at least 3 times a week
Optional: Extra days at the gym (cardio, weight at times too), a video (30 day shred kicks arse and I also like Leslie Sansone Walk/Jog), a walk with my family (Strollers and hills kick arse!)

Weekly Weigh in

2009-07-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

I'm early, because I've been gone, and needed to check on myself!

I'm PUMPED.

I hit 30lbs lost today!!!!!

Funny timing, because I also hit 30 inches lost!!!!!

	5/15/2009	7/1/2009	7/13/2009
	Start	Previous	Current
1. Bust: Don't squish yourself -- measure all the way around your bust and back right at your nipple line, and make sure the tape measure is not lower.
	35	32	32
2. Chest: Measure under your breasts but as high up as you can go, keeping the tape measure parallel to this line when you reach it around your back.
	29	28	28
3. Waist: Measure wherever it is the smallest (if you have "no waist" go around yourself right at the navel line).
	30	28	28
4. Hips: Measure at the very biggest part -- even if that is so low that you are almost on the top of your thighs.
	43	39	38
5. Midway: Measure midway between the very biggest part of your hips and your waist.
	39	36	34
6. Thighs: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	26	21.5	21
7. Knees: Measure right above the knee.
	18	15	15
8. Calves: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	15	13	13
9. Upper arm: Measure wherever they are biggest above your elbows.
	13	11	11
10. Forearms: Measure wherever they are biggest below your elbows.
	11	9	9

Weekly Loss		1.5	3.5
Total loss		26.5 inches	30 inches

patting self on back

2009-06-29T11:56:00.000-07:00

I told myself that I only had to do 15 minutes of running today if I wanted. But as you all know, you have those dialoges with yourself on the treadmill. The ones you want to quit early, but talk yourself into an extra minute. I talked myself up to 30 minutes, at which point I then talked myself into GOING for it, and finishing 5k!

Needless to say, I did it, and I feel great about myself.

A 3 minute warm up walk (got 1/4 mile) and then I managed a 40 minute 5k!! Not a number I want when I actually do a 5k, but a start!!! After a 4 minute cool down that was a total of 3.6 miles on the treadmill today!

yeah for my first 5k!!!!

Back to diligence

2009-06-28T07:47:00.000-07:00

Need to get my ass back on track!!!!

Its amazing how quickly one can loose motivation. How quickly a (good) habit is forgotten. This never happens with the bad ones!

My routine was messed up by a vacation and now by being a single parent.

In the last month my weight has fluctuated between 141-144lbs, up then down then back up. I need to be diligent about my recording whats coming in my body and what I'm burning off. While I've been OK with keeping up work outs, I have NOT been keeping track of whats going in.

So back at it. If it touches my lips it goes on the paper.

I can do this right!?!?

Heart Rates

2009-06-22T12:28:00.000-07:00

Well I am back at my gym today. I havent been there in two weeks. I wanted to run 3k but was sadly dissapointed with myself. I dont understand, I've ran 30 minutes straight (at 4.5) a few times now. Today though I couldnt go more then 3 minutes (at 4.5) and I'd have to take a minute walk (3.5) to catch my breath and control my heart rate. This happend last time.

I hate it because I dont know when to STOP pushing myself. My heart rate was hitting 202 and I know thats SUPER high for me (my recommended range is like 120-170). I dont understand this. I know the most effective work outs are at 50-80% of your max heart rate....

so does that mean that when my heart rate is up that high, I'm not being as effective?

Should I be slowing down? If so, how will I ever increase my ability. If not, how do I keep going without collapsing.

So confused.

I'm home and the results are in....

2009-06-21T15:38:00.000-07:00

WOOT!!!!
25 inches lost.

Over the last 18 days, I've managed to lose an additional 5.75, not bad for how badly I behaved on vacation!

	5/15/09	6/3/09	6/21/09
	Start	Previous	Current
1. Bust: Don't squish yourself -- measure all the way around your bust and back right at your nipple line, and make sure the tape measure is not lower.
	35	33.75	32
2. Chest: Measure under your breasts but as high up as you can go, keeping the tape measure parallel to this line when you reach it around your back.
	29	28.5	28
3. Waist: Measure wherever it is the smallest (if you have "no waist" go around yourself right at the navel line).
	30	28.5	28
4. Hips: Measure at the very biggest part -- even if that is so low that you are almost on the top of your thighs.
	43	40.5	39
5. Midway: Measure midway between the very biggest part of your hips and your waist.
	39	37	36.5
6. Thighs: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	26	22.5	22
7. Knees: Measure right above the knee.
	18	16	15.5
8. Calves: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	15	13	13
9. Upper arm: Measure wherever they are biggest above your elbows.
	13	11	11
10. Forearms: Measure wherever they are biggest below your elbows.
	11	9	9

Weekly Loss		3.25 loss	5.75
Total loss		19.25 inches	25 inches

Weighing in....

2009-06-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

Well well well. I'm excited, what I've learned this week is that I can maintain well! I'm eating shat, but doing so while thinking about my choices! I havent worked out in a week (until today!). That said, I found a scale. While I usually do my weigh ins in the am and naked, this one was done in the evening and dressed (shoes included). Hey, I didnt think the women there would appreciate me stripping down!

So here we have it.....its been 2 weeks since my last weigh in and I was 143.

Today I pulled out a 141!!!!!! Woooooooooooooot!

I'm happy. Thats great for vacation if you ask me!

Hmmm

2009-06-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

Well, time has gotten away from me. The work outs are harder to come by since this hotel does not have 24 hour access to the fitness center. My DVD has a scratch in it. So my work outs consist of 4 hours of recreational swimming (I try to tread water for at least 20 minutes twice a day).

My diet has stuck the the three smaller meals a day, but still not counting calories.

The good news is, my clothes are my 'scale" and a pair of size 10 shorts that fit well before are now very loose! So yeah for that!!!!

And my swimsuit bottom is sagging :-)

So far so....

2009-06-09T19:25:00.000-07:00

.....Good with the workouts.

I worked out at the gym before I left on Sunday. Sunday night we drove all night, I got 2 hours of sleep, and I still was a good girl and went to the fitness room at the hotel on Monday! YEAH for me. I did day one of week 8. I also did some free weights and crunches!

Today...Tuesday....I did the 30 Day Shred. So I'm two for two on my work outs on vacation. Which is better then I often do at home.

...bad with the diet! I've never had Chic Fil A or Jack In the Box. So I had to try those. That said, I've watched portions NOT skipped breakfast and kept snacking to a minimum. Again much better then I usually do on vacation.

I say its a wash! And as far as vacations go.....a success.

The test

2009-06-07T07:59:00.000-07:00

So I'm leaving today for a road trip. I will not be back until Monday the 15th. That means no weekly weigh in to keep me on track. I plan to work out in the hotel gyms whenever I have a chance. I will try to stay within my maintain number of calories (vs. my lose number).

This is gonna be tricky. So please keep your thoughts with me! I'm SCARED.

See ya on the flip side!

Nice Surprise

2009-06-03T19:11:00.001-07:00

I do not like running outside. When you add elements like wind, hills, heat, uneven ground......my endurance goes down, my clumsiness increases and I just plain STINK. That said, not many 5ks are performed on a treadmill.

I got my new toy today. And after much to do trying to get the phucin thing to work. I took it out for a test run! I seriously had NO endurance, and was dying after 7 minutes (even though my past two runs have been 25 minutes straight on the treadmill). Well low and behold, I find out that outdoors I am running at a much faster "natural pace". While on the treadmill, I stick to 4.5 as my high speed for a long run (13:20 minute Mile). Out doors I was running at a pace for a 9:30 minute mile!

If I hadn't calibrated my foot pod, I wouldnt have believed it. Heck, I didnt. So I "mapmyrun"ed it, and sure as heck, thats about right! Due to that though, I did have to slow it down and pace myself better. But I'm happy to know that my natrual pace isnt QUITE as slow as I thought it was!

Wednesday Weigh In

2009-06-03T04:29:00.000-07:00

Sigh. My weight is the same. Thats frustrating, since at one point this weekend I was down to 141, yesterday 142. But thank god I started measuring inches, because they DID drop.

Weight 143 (25lb loss)

	5/15/09	5/20/09	5/27/09	6/3/09

1. Bust: Don't squish yourself -- measure all the way around your bust and back right at your nipple line, and make sure the tape measure is not lower.
	35	34	34	33.75
2. Chest: Measure under your breasts but as high up as you can go, keeping the tape measure parallel to this line when you reach it around your back.
	29	29	28.5	28.5
3. Waist: Measure wherever it is the smallest (if you have "no waist" go around yourself right at the navel line).
	30	30	29	28.5
4. Hips: Measure at the very biggest part -- even if that is so low that you are almost on the top of your thighs.
	43	42	41.5	40.5
5. Midway: Measure midway between the very biggest part of your hips and your waist.
	39	39	38	37
6. Thighs: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	26	23	22.5	22.5
7. Knees: Measure right above the knee.
	18	16	16	16
8. Calves: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	15	13	13	13
9. Upper arm: Measure wherever they are biggest above your elbows.
	13	11	11	11
10. Forearms: Measure wherever they are biggest below your elbows.
	11	10	9.5	9

Total loss 3.25 inches!!!!

12 week progress

2009-06-02T10:58:00.000-07:00

Gross, I shouldnt be doing this. I'm not happy where I am yet, but I figure if I start doing my 4 week updates where the world can see, maybe it will help me push. Okay, thats not true, I always FEEL better then i look in pictures. LOL.

First of all, here I was 5 months pregnant. A year ago this past weekend (i think its better then now! minus the horrid frizzy hair!)

Here I am at my starting weight 168 (3 months ago).

Here I am now 142. (bonus back shot and new suit!)

Timed Mile

2009-05-31T14:16:00.000-07:00

Ran my third timed mile today. I am NOT good at running for time. But I did improve, so thats something.

April 20th: 13:45
May 13th: 12:34
May 31st: 12:02

Oh tough call...

2009-05-29T11:07:00.000-07:00

SO I decided to save money and get a "basic" gadget. But then Amazon threw a bundle together I couldn't refuse for the Garmin 50 with foot pod and HR monitor. So I said SELF, get that.

And I did.

But then I almost had to cancel my order, because I see that they made a Garmin FR60. And it comes in LILAC. And seriously, isnt everything prettier in color. The problem, I'd have to spend 50$ more, and lose 2 months of use (Release date of July 20th).

SO I stuck with the basic.

Had it been in PINK.......there would have been nothing to think about, 50$ be damned!

Week 6 COMPLETE

2009-05-28T18:09:00.000-07:00

This was my first 25 minute run. Last week I completed a 20 minute run, with an average pace of 4.1, and yes I know thats slow, and I probably look like I'm crawling on the treadmill, but speed is not supposed to matter! Its about getting endurance.

Today, I was able to run the majority of the 25 minutes at 4.5. But I did have to drop down to 4.0 for a minute here and there. I did about 15 seconds at 3.5 (my walking pace) but stayed in jog form and made up for it in my last 30 seconds by going at 5.0.

Note to self. DONT eat before long runs. My stomach was not happy with me.

I had a total strength work out tonight as well. Shred must be taking its toll on my muscles though, or I guess the running could be, because my leg exercises were VERY difficult today, and I had to do them 5lbs less then normal. Arms went fine. I skipped Abs because my stomach was angry enough.

That said, I DID IT! And now, I've earned my heart rate monitor, now to decide which one I want!

Wednesdays Workout

2009-05-27T18:13:00.000-07:00

I tried level two of the 30 day shred. Was a little nervous cause level one is hard.

Just ask Kevin! I made him do it with me on Monday. He couldn't walk yesterday. He he he. It was nice to be able to keep up with him/out do him, since he is much more athletic then I.

Anyways, loved level 2, the moves were easier for me then level one but the endurance required more. I may have snuck a drink of water or two, but dont tell Jillian! She scares me! Level 2 also made my abs feel a lot more involved then level one, which right now I REALLY need.

When I was this weight a year ago, I was a size 8. I'm no where near that right now. I'm a very fitted (not muffin top fitted, but still very snug) size 10. And its all due to my lack of ab work this go around. So I'm happy to say, I worked them good.

Gadgets

2009-05-27T12:11:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow if I finish my run, ,a 25 minute run, I earn my heart rate monitor.

So the question is. Do I get a basic heart rate monitor or do I go all out? I would like SOMETHING to help me track distance when I decide to go outdoors.

Target has GREAT deals on the Garmin 305 right now.

The Garmin 50 package Target offers seems more practical since its also usable inside, but it lacks the GPS option.

There is also the basic heart rate montiors with the added pedometer or the Nike ipod Sports kit. The problem with that, I run with the shuffle, NOT the Nano, and if I go with the ipod piece I'd also need an arm band for my Nano. Which deafeats the whole purpose of even having the shuffle.

Sigh. Too many things to choose from.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh Ins

2009-05-27T12:09:00.000-07:00

Wednesday is my weigh in day.

This Wednesday, i hit a BIG milestone! YEAH me.

25lbs lost!

I am measuring inches too. I just haven't recorded them yet today, I'll add them to this post a bit later when I get to it! But for now....GO 25LBS!

*****Measurements****

	5/15/09	5/20/09	5/27/09

1. Bust: Don't squish yourself -- measure all the way around your bust and back right at your nipple line, and make sure the tape measure is not lower.
	35	34	34
2. Chest: Measure under your breasts but as high up as you can go, keeping the tape measure parallel to this line when you reach it around your back.
	29	29	28.5
3. Waist: Measure wherever it is the smallest (if you have "no waist" go around yourself right at the navel line).
	30	30	29
4. Hips: Measure at the very biggest part -- even if that is so low that you are almost on the top of your thighs.
	43	42	41.5
5. Midway: Measure midway between the very biggest part of your hips and your waist.
	39	39	38
6. Thighs: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	26	23	22.5
7. Knees: Measure right above the knee.
	18	16	16
8. Calves: Measure wherever they are the biggest.
	15	13	13
9. Upper arm: Measure wherever they are biggest above your elbows.
	13	11	11
10. Forearms: Measure wherever they are biggest below your elbows.
	11	10	9.5

TOTAL LOSS THIS WEEK: 4 inches!!!!

I really wish I had started takign measurements earlier. I've only been doing it for two weeks and have lost a total of 16 inches, wonder how many I lost in the 9 weeks before that?!?!?

Tuesday's Workout

2009-05-26T18:55:00.001-07:00

I stepped it up a bit today. I spent about 20 minutes on the wii this afternoon during nap time doing planks, push ups, and jack knifes.

Then after Kev got home I headed to the gym. I'm on day 2 of week 6 in the couch to 5k. I am improving greatly. Last week on my first 20 minute straight run, I ran at 4.5-4.0 for a speed. Varied as needed. Today, I ran 10 minutes at 4.7, walked at 4.0 for 3 minutes, and ran 10 more minutes at 4.6 (5.0 for the last minute). YEAH ME!

After the treadmill, I did a full circuit of strength training (arms, legs and abs). I surprised myself on the pull downs, when I thought I put the weight at 50lbs, but after I finished I realized it had been at 70lbs! Another YEAH ME!

I ended the gym work out with 10 minutes on the elliptical and came home and did a few more ab exercises for good measure.

I think this is by far my "biggest" work out day yet.

Tracking Progress....stolen from my "real blog"

2009-05-26T13:20:00.001-07:00

Well I started on my "diet" almost 11 weeks ago....

I have lost 24 lbs.
My pant size has dropped from a tight 14 to a 10
Not so happily my boobs have shrunk as well 36DD to a 34C
Dress size from a large to a medium

I started at the gym 8 weeks ago....

from hardly being able to run 60 seconds/walk 90 seconds to a 20 minute straight run (Couch to 5k, I'm in the middle of week 6)
30 day shred level one not able to complete, maybe a 60% effort, to completing it and doing so with more "umph" then kevin
chest press from 10 to 30lbs, leg press from 60 to 120lbs, thigh machine from 30-80lbs, and many more......

I started measuring "inches" two weeks ago....

lost over 10 inches!

I am starting to feel GOOD! yeah me!

Becoming a betty....

2009-05-26T13:18:00.001-07:00

I need a place to keep track of my progress. To hold myself accountable. To talk to myself as needed. To pat myself on the back, or kick myself in the ass. A place to show progress and set backs. So here it is.......on my way to becoming a betty. Though I did contemplate "Making a MILF"......this just felt more appropriate. Not that I've ever cared about censoring myself before.

Becoming a Betty

Quote to Remember

More of the same

Uber Frustration

Zumba

Counting down

WEEK 4

C25K W2D3

Slim Down Challenge

C25k W2D1

Thank you netflix!

C25k W1D2...

Dear Lord,

C25k...

The plan

Resolution

Summer Slacking

Before I turn 30

Diet Bandwagon

Peeeuww...musta been the dog!

Shin Splints

Couch to 5k repeat

I'm a pepper...

Fat Tuesday

Devine Interventions

Motivation is lacking again

Oh what a difference a year makes.....

New Years Resolutions SUCK

Reached my goal again!

40lbs lost.....and then a few gained back!

Hmph

From Skeptic to Believer

8 for 8

Metabolism Mayhem!

Back on the wagon

Its been a while

Hungry Girl

Is it worth it?

Wednesday Weigh In

Tuesday Schmoozday

When is "Good Enough" enough?

Freaken Plateu!!!

Motivation

Proud of me!!!! Make that proud of WE!!!!

Okay....time for a 5k

How I roll.....

Weekly Weigh in

*patting self on back*

Back to diligence

Heart Rates

I'm home and the results are in....

Weighing in....

Hmmm

So far so....

The test

Nice Surprise

Wednesday Weigh In

12 week progress

Timed Mile

Oh tough call...

Week 6 COMPLETE

Wednesdays Workout

Gadgets

Weekly Wednesday Weigh Ins

Tuesday's Workout

Tracking Progress....stolen from my "real blog"

Becoming a betty....

patting self on back