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Well I've spent the summer slacking. Yo-Yoing in a 10lb range. Anywerhe frmo 10-20lbs above the goal weight I reached....BOO HISS.
I joined a weight loss challenge 4 weeks ago, and I have 8 more weeks to go. I have lost 3lbs of that. Seriously?! Thats not my best effort and I know it. I put on a pair of PJs that used to hang loose and they are tight. FRUSTRATING. While I wish I could say my clothes shrunk, I dont think thats the problem.
So I have 8 weeks to get going. I need to AT LEAST give my best effort. I hate lacking in motivation; I hate that my body is going back to where it was; I dont want to be a yo-yo dieter. I was doing fine "maintaining" until summer it and I got toooo mcuh time on my hands. Hopefully when work starts up that wont be an option.
Sigh. I just still dont feel it!
Alright, well May 4th. Thats my day. This weekend I must celebrate my baby girl turning 4! And after that, its back to the grind. I've done well (by well I mean I stopped gaining weight, lol and started to exercise occasionally).
So on Monday, its back to the diet and back to the daily activity.
I have to say, I'm starting to think I'm MEANT to be 140. Thats where I plateaued after Izze (before Caden) and thats where I plateaued last summer for about 6 months and thats where my body went right back to when I stopped being diligent.
I'm okay with that. However, I promised to be in the best shape of my life at 30. And while that is decent shape for me (my college weight) its not my best. So back at it I go.....and hopefully I can reach my goal....
Getting back on this is HARD. I hate to eat healthy. I wish I liked it. I've been outta control with my eating thanks to Easter Candy. Today I've stayed on track and its almost supper time. My head HURTS because its the first day in 3 weeks, I have yet to have sugar. I'm trying to push through, but boy is it HARD!
Its Beautiful here in MN. There is mud everywhere. Slush galore. Wet stinky dogs. But the sun is shining and its 40 degrees. That DEFINITELY called for some grilling.
So I made some FABULOUS burgers. And what good is a burger without baked beans...NO GOOD. So there you have it.
WHY am I sharing this. Well, if you know me you may also know that I once choose to fail a gymnastics class in college because bending and exercising really made my IBS issues come to the surface. Gas and frequent bathroom trips make for an awkward 60 minutes of exercise at times. Your sooo welcome that I shared that. Lucky for me, it has improved greatly over the years but high fiver items such as beans, well that does NOT keep it on track.
So for the sake of the other 15 people in the circuit class, I sacrificed myself and stayed home for a video. My family is used to the smell....those poor people are not. And at home, I can blame the dog!
YEOWWWCH!
I didn't start the C25k yesterday. I had shin splints from Tuesday's mile!!!!
They hurt, so yesterday I rested.
Today I wont start either, but I DO plan to go to the gym and do a circut class. Now that I typed that I better actually go!
Well, its almost 5k season. I was asked to do one that is 6 weeks away. I don't think I'll be able to due to a schedule conflict, but that means its at least time to start getting back into the running game. So I'm gonna start on week 2 or 3. I was going to start today, but decided to just start with a timed mile (I was short on time today). I pulled out a 12:25 mile, which is not my best, but not my worst either. And at least I hit the gym (I went a whole wopping 3 times in Febuary).
So lets see if I can get back into this!!!
Well, I decided that weight was put on by my reintroducing carbonated beverages to my life. I only had one case, but it went fast, and I was hooked fast. I had gas galore and I was bloated. Since I ran out of Diet Dr. Pepper, I went through caffeine withdraws first. Thats funny because when I started to drink them, I got headaches from introducing the caffeine. Then when I stopped I got headaches from quitting it. SO I quickly remembered why I avoid it. Next, the weight has dropped 2lbs a day with minimal exercise and minimal working out. But now I'm suffering from sugar detox. I'm craving it like no other......what I wouldn't give right now for a Diet Dr. Pepper (but caffeine free please)
Happy Fat Tuesday!
I felt the need to celebrate and over the last few weeks have eaten enough to feed a small orphanage for a year. Thus resulting in my pants hardly fitting.
Tomorrow starts Lent. Originally a time for fasting. Now we try to encourage students to do good deeds during the season (as opposed to the traditional "giving something up"). For me, I'll go with the fasting....and my good deed will be to go to the gym. After all, they need business in this tough economy. And after I've done that I will work on not bitching and moaning about it to my husband who will appreciate a happy wife as opposed to an angry one.
I feel this is above and beyond my calling.....but I'm a giver.
Yesterday, I FORCED myself to the gym. After a good cry and stalling.
I got there and jumped on the elliptical. I had read an article that said, high intensity for a shorter amount of time is better then a long time at moderate intensity. So I decided to"up the resistance" and go for 10-15 minutes. Figured anything is better then what I've been doing for the past 3 weeks.
So coming upon minute 13 and who walks up but my trainer. Who I am no longer seeing because she costs an arm and a leg, but I really wish I could. I think 'uh oh" she can SENSE I havent worked out in over 21 days. She tells me they are having kickboxing in an 5 minutes and tells me I'll love it. I can't think of an excuse fast enough so I said I'd join.
It turned out to be a GREAT hour long work out (I even stayed for the extra 10 minutes of ab work). I felt very proud afterward. She asked me if I liked it and I said I did, then I confessed. She laughed at me, and said she was glad I was back and that she could hold me accountable.
That was just what I needed....now if only I could afford to see her once a week and let her hold me accountable!
I gained about 5 lbs since getting back from Jamaica. I'm not very happy about that. BUT I haven't been to the gym since before we went (its been over 3 weeks at least).
I really need to go to the gym and work out but the idea depresses me. I HATE it. I HATE working out. I try to tell myself I'll feel better afterward, but I just can not convince myself, and I'm not sure what to do about this rut.
Seriously. I manage to drag myself outside in the negative 25 degree weather to go to the gym. PAT ON THE BACK for that. So what do I find when I get there, but a bajillion people. I expected this, after all its January 2nd. And people made the resolution to get to the gym, yesterday they were probably too hung over to start, but today, they go. Heres the problem. This if Faribault. I should NOT have to wait in line for a treadmill in Faribault. In LA maybe. But not Faribault. I will not do it. Not when I have workouts I can do at home, and new ones at that! Biggest Loser DVD's and the Wii game here I come. And those of you who KNOW your not going to last past January 31st with your resolutions, STOP making them.
I DID IT!
I'm back, and it only took a week, not bad. Whew.
So now, what next. I'm happy with the number on the scale. I love that I can say I lost 40lbs. I have found that when I DONT take care of myself (i.e. eating like crap and not working out) my body pays for it and I feel it. I DONT like how it makes me feel and therefore I will continue to try to keep up the good habits I have, and try and improve on others (water consumption and breakfast!)
Someone asked me if I was done losing weight now. Honestly, I dont know. I still look in the mirror and see a lot of the same stuff that bugged me. So I deffinately want to work on toning. But like I said, I dont care about the number on the scale. So from not on, its working on the image and making sure I KEEP feeling good and healthy.....this could be the trickiest step yet!!!!!
