Quote to Remember

Hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard!

More of the same

I still suck at motivating myself to exercise. I NEED to do it. I'm eating good and losing about a lb a week, but if I were to exercise it would go faster! I'm not sure how to get there though, and with my crazy busy days, i'm not sure when to fit it in. I litterally come home from work and make supper then take Izze to swimming/dance or vice versa. Then when thats over its time for the kids to go to bed, then me!

Why can't there be one more hour in the day? I guess it wouldnt matter, I'd use it for sleep instead :-(

Uber Frustration

I spent the last three days watching what I eat HARD core. NO snacks, no cheats, no meals. Lots of water. I felt like I was starving myself (mentally) but felt good phsyically. I did not however work out, as time did not allow. I weigh in every morning as a way to "monitor" my previous days intakes. And every morning this weekend the scale said "WAY TO GO" and "Your doing GREAT". Then this morning came, and I was up 3 lbs? How can that happen? I can account for about 1lb possibly and I'm going to be kinda and not tell you how. But the other two...thats just frustrating. It makes you not want to continue.

I'm really just angry at myself. Why i let myself put that 20lbs back on between last June and this October. It would have been so much easier to MAINTAIN then to lose again. I looked damn good. I want to look damn good again. How can 20lbs make that much different, I dont know, but do you know 20lbs is almost 3-4 pants sizes?!!? THAT is gross. I want my size 6 back. Most days I'm a 10. But this weekend I had to put on a 12 (on Friday) and that is when I the moment I started to behave. I disgust myself. I know as far as others see me I'm not obese, but that doesnt make me any less disappointed in myself. I have to keep on, but when the scale makes me sad i want to EAT. :-(

Please lord jesus, give me the strength. I want and need to love myself like i did last year. I promise never to give in to the eggs again! (Jesus, lets be clear here, I will eat them, i just wont eat 12 a day). Thank you Jesus.

Zumba

Today I am going to try Zumba.
Oh wait. Today i WAS going to try Zumba.
The damn snow storm went and got the class cancelled. So if I can fit it into my schedule on Tuesday then I'll do it then, if not, I'll wait till next Sunday.

Counting down

I"m getting nervous. This gets harder every time.
In a month I weigh in for our final weigh in. I just want to have lost 10 lbs. Thats all I'm aiming for, but more would be great!
In 4 months is the wedding. I am stressing about the dress size. It would help if the bride would bring my dress to me instead of holding it hostage so that I can see how much I have to work to make it work!
I dont like pressure, it makes me want to eat, or crawl in my bed and hide. Neither of those things are going to help!

WEEK 4

is kicking my butt!!! I'm having sooo much trouble with the last 5 minute run! I feel like I'll die. I have no idea why its so hard. Last week was so easy.
I'm also gaining muscle and thus NOT making my scale move. So frustrating :-(

C25K W2D3

AND I'M DONE! WHEW. That one was the hardest of the three, even though its the same, I think because I ate junk and pop today. That will teach me. I like that my body is figuring out how to show me what it doesn't like.

I've been watching an episode of Law and Order Criminal Intent Season 1 with each run. Its great timing. I turn on the episode with my netflix streaming, I get my shoes on, plug in the treadmill, warm up, run, cool down. Sit down take off shoes, unplug everything, and then it ends. This works for me. I shoulda started it the first day, so I was episode for work out. But instead I'm done with episode 4 (and workout 6). Maybe this weekend I'll watch two episodes to catch myself up. That would be a lot easier to remember.

Yes I AM a dork.

Slim Down Challenge

2 weeks ago today I convinced a few of my coworkers and a freind to join the Slim Down Challenge with me. You need a team of four. You weigh in on January 5th and bi-weekly you send your weights to the captain (me) for them to send in. The results are posted in the paper. The final weigh in is live on March 16th.
My team started off as the SMALLEST team to start with. Combined we weighed 614.2lbs. Did I mention they publish that in the paper? And our results each week. At first being the smallest team worried me. But we lost 10lbs! I think thats pretty dang good.
So watch for the Divine Diva's in the paper. And lets hope we kick some butt!

C25k W2D1

I dont know if it was my distraction or what, but it flew by. And was not as hard as I thought it would be.

Yesterday, since it was an "off" day; I did Just Dance and wii tennis with Izze. Today my arm pit hurts. Yep. I said arm PIT. Weird? I think so!

I also need to post a chart on my fridge to make sure I'm getting in stuff on my off days, instead of choosing my usual LAZY route :-)

Thank you netflix!

I made it through week one. And as it should be day 3 was easier then days 1 and 2. Whew. I also found netflix streaming episodes of Law and Order to be uber helpful with that as well! Thank you Netflix.
So on Monday, I am to start week 2! Kev's gone this week; so it will be tricky to get in all of my runs, but hopefully I can do it :-) I think my new floors are just asking for Izze and I to play Just Dance 2! Thats always good for a sweat.

C25k W1D2...

Done!
It was easier then day 1. I think thats the point, though its not always how MY body knows. Anyone who knows me knows I'm NOT an athlete. I remember in grade school walking the mile. I remember in middle school "cardinals" would kill me during Volleyball (those are the nasty sprints from one end of the gym to the first line and back; to the next line and back; and so on and so on until you go the full length and that counts as ONE cardinal). And in HS I gave up sports that involved running; cheerleading and golf it was.
So yes, I'm not an athlete in the least.
This is without even mentioning that I have one leg that is shorter then the other; so I run like a freak.
But it was easy(er) so thats good news!

Dear Lord,

My thighs hurt.
Amen.

C25k...

...take two. Or is it three. Well if it is three; attempt two was a FAIL (meaning I never did more then a day or two). So we are calling this try two. I'm really outta shape, so I'm starting at week one again. I got through all my run/walks (20 minutes) and before my cool down decided to see how long I could sprint. I lasted a whole 20 seconds before I though I'd fall off. Considering behind me is a glass door, I didn't feel like pushing it.
Thats harder then I remember. My cat is judging me. She must think its easy.
She's sitting on the treadmill mocking me.
Turn this baby on; I'll show you how to do it.

The plan

I should have a plan.
But I don't.
What I've done in the past has always worked. So I guess its more of that.
I did give up pop. Thats hard, I am only an occasional drinker anyways, but its been more frequent lately; and now that I can't I REALLY want one.
I'm off to try my new treadmill soon! YEAH for new treadmills!

Resolution

A year ago I was in almost the best shape of my life. I was down to 128lbs. My lowest since high school. I looked good, though I didn't really think so at the time. But now lookign back. Yep, I did.

I'll never bee a stick girl; I'm a curvy girl; but at least they were proportioned.
SO why did I let myself get away from that you ask. Why did I put back on 15-20 lbs (depending on the day). Well....Yep basically these things are my kryptonite. Which is MIGHTY funny if you know that I do not even like chocolate, nor am I fan of peanut butter, heck, I don't even like Reeses peanut butter cups. But take those cups and turn them into an egg and I'm a GONER.
My body, or perhaps a divine intervention; decided enough was enough. And when pumpkin season came around, my body rejected them. I think I overdosed on eggs last spring. Now when I eat them; I get ill within an hour. Some days its still worth it...to have ONE. But never again will I sit down and eat the bag....WHEW.
SO now its time to get rid of this pesky extra weight. I want to wear my skinny clothes again. So its back to watching what I eat and WORKING OUT. I hate working out. We know this. But I dont mind running on a treadmill. So its Kevs job to get me one. He's been supposedly working on this since September. Seriously. Speed it up buddy. Because now I have not one but TWO deadlines.
As of Wednesday; I'm joining the slim down contest in Fbo where they post your loss in the PAPER! I have until March 16th to lose as much as I can to win prizes. I have a team depending on me!
My second deadline is June 18th. Yes my anniversary. But also B and Matts wedding. I ordered a size 8 which fit at about 12+lbs over goal weight. But not 1t 15-20+. I'd rather be under; after all I know a damn good seamstress who can make ANYTHING smaller; but bigger....not so much. Besides; that will be summer; and I have all sorts of super CUTE size 6 clothes in my closet that are begging me to wear them again. Don't worry clothes (and summer) I'm coming! I'm coming!